Keep Going…?

Right after Christmas my father past away in a car accident. We had him cremated and he’s been with my mom in an urn ever since. Soon we will be putting him in his final resting place at his family’s cemetery. A part of me is not ready to see this happen. It’s time. I know this.

Nemo don't forgetI don’t think I’ve dealt with his loss very well, and I feel like he’d be unhappy with me avoiding the situation. I still pretend he’s at his Florida house, and all I have to do is pick up the phone to hear his voice.

My screen saver has pictures of him, which makes me happy to see him. However, they caused my mother to burst into tears when she saw them. She asked how I could stand them. I told her that every time I see him, it is like he is still here with me.

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I’m not looking forward to burying my father. The more I think about it, the less I am able to write either. I know I’m depressed, but I didn’t bother telling my psychiatrist that. It’s situational, so I didn’t want to change my meds, but I can’t concentrate well either.

My main character isn’t dynamic enough, so I’ve been told. Makes me want to just chuck it and start all over again. 30,000+ words in, and I want to start over?  I need to just remind me it’s the depression and keep going.

robin hood you worry too muchShould I keep going? I wonder if I’m being too hard on myself because that can be fixed later, or will I be wasting my time?

 

 

Moving Right Along

So, I’m now half way through chapter 16. Whoo hoo! Just like 30 more chapters to go.

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Yep a lot left to do, but I love it. I have written almost 30,000 words, over 100 pages. My outline is awesome. I don’t mean to brag, but I think I’m really going to like this book.

I know I should be writing then. I will. Just taking a break. I haven’t written a blog in a while so I thought I’d spew out my thoughts on here.

Okay, now what? I wish I could get people to comment on here. No one ever does.

How about those Chicago Cubs?

No, too much.

How about questions about your writing–what are you working on? Are you having any problems? Do you just need encouragement?

On a previous post, I talked about scribophile.com. I went head and did premium and started posting chapters, but no one is touching them. What? I was not expecting that. I’m seriously disappointed. I guess everything is seriously disappointing me lately.

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Nicole Fruit

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Karma Craze

How many people here are on Scribophile.com or at least know about it?

I love using it to practice critiquing when I’m not busy with other things. I’m thinking of going premium, but haven’t yet because I think I need to wait for my WIP’s first draft is finished. A part of me wonders how long that will be, but I’ve been making good progress with my writing. I’m just being impatient.

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I highly recommend you look it up if you never seen it. It’s a great writing site that allows you to gain Karma points for critiquing in exchange for posting your own writing for others to critique. Posting your own work costs Karma points. Typically, you get one Karma point per critique, and it takes 5 Karma points to post your own work. I need more Karma points, so I can bank them for when I am finished with my first draft.  It’s a great incentive to write. I love it!

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When it comes to my WIP, I’m on chapter 13 right now. I’m wishing I can lite a fire under my chair to get me to write better and faster, but here I am writing a blog instead of my novel.

It’s Saturday night. Come on! Why can’t I concentrate? I guess it’s because I’ve reached a cross roads. Party or not to party… Ummm.

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Poetry: Path Starter

Have you ever noticed that most writers start with writing poetry in high school? I have, and it always makes me smile. I love poetry, but I’m not very good at it. Well, I use to think so, but now looking back I just smile at my old poems. Teenage angst. SMH.

With my writer’s group, one member loves to write poetry, so it made me remember some of mine from college. I went on the hunt looking for my favorite poems, but never found the one’s I loved from college. I found over 50 poems from high school, but very few from later. I’m so disappointed. My best writing was in my college years.

I guess I have no other recourse than to say…oh well. Tear.

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I did look through so many boxes and found a lot of my novels and nonfiction books starts that never went anywhere other than a box. I counted two finished novels, five started novels, and a finished nonfiction research project about bipolar disorder.

I’m a constant writer that would love to publish but never felt anything was quite right for public consumption. Right now, I’m writing a New Adult Fantasy novel that I’ve planned for two years and have written only 20,000 words. It’s book one of a series of at least four books. I guess it will fill my compulsive writing quota, but will I get to the point of publishing it? I certainly hope so. That is why I started a writer’s group. The first one helped me finish one novel, but I shelved that. This group I hope will keep encouraging me to keep writing and finish this series.

I know I’m not the only one out there that writes but has never made that step toward authorship. How did you manage to get passed self-doubt?

Writer’s Groups

I love having a writer’s group to go to each week. They really help me focus on writing. I’m not fast. I’d never be able to handle NaNoWriMo like a boss, but I’m holding my own. I’ve been able to submit each week to my group, so that’s what matters to me.

I’m writing a New Adult Fantasy novel with Romantic Elements. I’ve written 20,000 words so far, but I have the first book plotted out. It will be a four-book series that is going to be awesome. I’m excited.

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So if you’re interested in being in a writer’s group, you should see if one is available in your area. I started mine on Meetup.com. First time was in 2013 with a group of eclectic talents that met in Crystal Lake, IL. It’s still operating. Go check them out.

I left the group when I moved to Rockford, IL and started another group. I wanted a group where we could critique each other’s pieces and not worry about publishing yet. We would hopefully work toward that goal together. I formed my group differently than most writer’s groups. I have the group email in their selections two days ahead of time, and then we read the selections on our own before the night we meet. Then we discuss our critiques with each other. We are meeting weekly, which is new for me, but I enjoy it.

One thing I learned from these writer’s groups is that when you get your critique back, set it aside for the 2nd draft, and keep writing your novel. If you worry about the beginning, you will never get very far. I wrote my first four chapters five times before I realized this great advice. I kick myself for that. Learn from the wealth of knowledge available in the writing community. Never stop learning!

Go to owlfixitediting.com to learn more about me and my editorial services company. If your looking to submit your manuscript to an agent or a publisher and want a professional edit before hand, let me know. I would be happy to do a free sample edit and give you a professional quote.

Nicole Fruit

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